Overwhelmed by the New

This is a short report.

In case you have been wondering, there are more new things in the world today than there were yesterday. I think the rate of new things per day is increasing, but I can no longer detect the edges of anything, so I can’t be sure through direct, empirical observation.

I have a lot of work to do, and although I love that work, I can’t help but feel that I would be of greater value still to everybody and everything if I were to just go back to school for four-or-more years, to learn all the things I want to, and think that I might need to.

Except, the world would have moved on anyway while I was in class. The busses have left the station: I will not be a master 3D modeller / animator in my lifetime. I will not be sagely informed about machine learning and tensors and such (whatever a Tensor is). I will never be an accomplished musician.

I will never be an expert at anything.

This is going to have to be ok. There’s something perfectly double-edged about having so much to choose from in Life, that one can never expect to have it all (or even know what it all means). This is one of countless aspects of living in a full-spectrum environment that we are simply here to experience and accept.

Humility and pragmatism probably play a part in surviving the modern world, but I need to do some more research on that before making any rash decisions about being more humble, or pragmatic.

I’m late for something.

To Continue…

Bad Sound From a Borrowed Truck

One day I started talking to myself in a truck, while recording. I called it a podcast, which may or may not be entirely accurate.

EP 06 -Failing Forward Hardly Regarding

More rambles from a borrowed truck.- Podcasting services: using them and stuff- Parable of the Sower
  1. EP 06 -Failing Forward
  2. EP 05.1 – Getting Our Stuff in Order
  3. EP 04 – Retractions, Backpedaling, and Etc.
  4. EP 03 – Religion, Privilege, and other Tools
  5. EP 02 – Serendipity, Faith, and Ikigai

Title music:
Fuzzball Parade by Kevin MacLeod
Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/5044-fuzzball-parade
License: http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/

Hardly Focusing

Listening to found audio from the Internet : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_uLM5i0Z4c

I have too many Things. This includes physical Things, like household objects, as well as project-like Things, like work, self-improvement, hobbies, and fleeting interests. These all add up to an inventory. Even my burgeoning list of passwords and TODOs are part of this expansive inventory.

My inventory is a blessing and a curse of course, as are many gifts. The options available to me are by-and-large of greater number – any given Thing being a potential key to some door – but with options comes an implicit call to someday choose-it-or-otherwise-lose-it. I’ve written about this elsewhere at other times, but always I think for about the same reason: I have trouble focusing in one direction, when so many intriguing ones present themselves.

At the risk of being repetitive: the Things we are given, and the Time we have to filter through and then pursue them, seem rather mismatched to me. Where are the extra limbs and eyes and minds I need to see these Things to their better conceived conclusions (or better yet, continuations)? I am only one mortal man, with no more than the predictable number of attachments and powers.

Of course, we are a collective for a reason. We are meant to recognize in each other all of the potential we can’t ourselves realize on our own. Some of our quests might be better given to or shared with others.

I am engaged at work these days. The project I’m working on – to a good extent a realization of my own imagination, then empowered by the interests and experiences of several other minds – keeps me thinking and plugging away.

Last night, I put myself to bed in a happy state, excited for the next steps in this project. I felt a familiar feeling: engagement in what I’m doing. This is a signal that I’ve found something worth really focusing on. By that, I mean other things (at least for a time) need to give way to it, so the work can happen in a full sense, rather than a partial one.

This means I can’t write for hours every day, or read for hours every day, or spend hours and hours watching videos and tutorials unrelated to the principal task at hand. It means I can’t start new projects whenever I want. It means I can’t keep a thousand browser tabs open, to be lightly and continuously monitored while doing all of the other Things. Focusing on one Thing means something. It is different than succeeding at everything you feel you should succeed at.

I sometimes imagine myself occupying a position in Possibility Space. This is different though related to Physical Space. The directions aren’t informed by the same magnetism, but are instead directions of exploration, inquiry, and implementation. Each journey takes one toward some conclusion/continuation (with the requisite embedded learning), and then necessarily away from the others.

A person wishing to explore to the East and North will end up to the North-East – a place in between the two places they were actually interested in visiting. A person wishing to explore East and West at once will end up more-or-less where they already are. Of course, this metaphor takes one only so far – the point is, if you want to finish something fully, head toward that Thing with something akin to determination, and certainly with a good measure of focus, for some amount of time.

How far you go in that direction might have as much to do with how little you concern yourself with all of the other available ones, as with the walking you do in the direction you decide to actually walk. Walking with intention – enjoying the view, moving objectively forward. The destinations you leave (for now) might be more reachable from your new position, for all you now know, once you become elevated through your concentrated effort (like climbing). It’s all about an attitude for altitude, maybe.

Art and AI

I recently watched two young violin professionals on Youtube react to the compositions of AIs, arrayed alongside those of humans.

The challenge was for them to tell which was which. One could see on their faces an uneasiness about where technology has gone, and where it might still go. I felt that anyway, watching it.

Increasing complexity and capacity in computing power begins to challenge my understanding of what makes a person Human, and what makes a work a work of Human inspiration. In the music space, artists are now uncertain how to approach music composed entirely by machines.

They aren’t in fact composed entirely by machines though – the machines still need Human creative works to inspect, so they can re-swizzle the patterns they find in order to “innovate”. The more predictable and repetitive Human art becomes, the easier it becomes for AI to simulate.

AI are getting quite disturbingly good at simulating us, in some sense. This might be a call for artists to raise the bar and move forward with what we consider art. Whatever that means. I’ll leave that to the real artists.

Once the AI can do what we do, we must venture out and do something entirely new…

HRe: Podcast Ep 2

I found some files on a usb stick, which I found among some clutter, which was located in a room.

Among the files were some of the audio variety. These involve a man talking to himself in a truck.

Bad Sound From a Borrowed Truck
Ep 02 : Faith, Serendipity, Atheism, and Ikigai

Ikigai: https://medium.com/thrive-global/ikigai-the-japanese-secret-to-a-long-and-happy-life-might-just-help-you-live-a-more-fulfilling-9871d01992b7

Title music:
Fuzzball Parade by Kevin MacLeod
Link: https://incompetech.filmmusic.io/song/5044-fuzzball-parade
License: http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/

Re: Routines

I am quite terrible when it comes to routine. As a Human, I fall into them, at times regardless of their quality or merit. In other circumstances, better routines seems far too difficult to fall into – they are the type you have to climb up or crack the code for.

This morning, on my walk to Tim Hortons (the ubiquitous coffee and donut chain in Canada), I imagined an invisible thread stretching in front of me, leading to the building’s entrance: the die, having been set so many times before, was now most certainly cast once more – I was heading for caffeine and the Internet, again. How has this worked for me so far?

Now that I’ve created a new blog, entered the Paying Customer tier, and given it some sort of facelift (my marketing skills are poor), I now want to build a better routine, around it. Journaling on the Internet – not exactly a novelty, but maybe it will be a tent peg of some sort.

HRe: Podcast Ep 1

I found some files on a usb stick, which I found among some clutter, which was located in a room.

Among the files were some of the audio variety. These involve a man talking to himself in a truck.

Bad Sound From a Borrowed Truck
Ep 01 : Hello, World! What Am I Doing Here?

The Wimsel Loop : https://wimselloop.wordpress.com/

The Wimsel Loop Instangram : https://www.instagram.com/wimselloop/

Re: Knowing Things

I have come to realize that (in my profession <SoftwareMonkey>), perhaps as in life, I rarely if ever Know any given Thing; I mostly just try and guess Things in real-time.

Oftentimes, this involves rolling up what I think that I once thought that I knew, and layering what I’m observing and feeling atop it all (and informed by intention, either conscious or some-sort-of-Otherwise), and making a decision about what I feel that I think that I now possibly know. Google is sometimes consulted – as are other Humans, on occasion.

This Never-Really-Knowing has something to do with Faith – though in what way, I can’t yet quite say.

I know this: I have Great Faith. Sometimes. I forget now and then, but it tends to return.

Teach Each Other; Help Each Other – we’re here to do these Things. This I most surely Know, through Faith in my God – who is also Your God. Our God. Through Whatever Names we call Them. We are here to learn, individually, and as a collective. To achieve some potential that we keep forgetting that we have.

I owe All of my Things to Every Body, while I’m here. I feel that I know this too. What is it that I faithfully owe to you?

Incremental Progress: Give yourSelf credit – for it’s your credit that’s due.

Re: Bitcoin and Beyond

I have been following the excellent Go Full Crypto podcast, which is the creation of Halifax-based Atlantic Blockchain Company. This is part of my ongoing learning journey regarding Blockchain, Cryptocurrency, and BitCoin – related but different things.

At the 20-minute mark of the podcast’s 5th episode, the hosts ask for opinions from the audience about what we think a World Reserve Currency might be, and how might it impact us?

I have been bombarding ABC with questions and opinions about all of this stuff lately, and so rather than sending another enormous screed to their inbox, I decided to make my answer a blog post instead, so that I could pester everybody with my opinions all at once.

Disclaimer & Preemptive Backpedaling: I don’t know what I don’t know about Blockchain, Crypto, Bitcoin, Economics, Human behaviour, and all those things. Everything I write is pretty much just semi-informed opinion. What follows is just a lot of that. Your opinions are your own to form and share, just like mine…



I don’t have an opinion on the modifier “Reserve”, but when I think of a successful world currency, I would expect the following of it:

1. Accessibility & Equity

It should be accessible to the largest number of people possible, in all countries, at all ages and financial demographics; the lowest barrier to entry possible.

These barriers today are still very significant: Understanding what crypto is (or even that it exists) is a non-trivial accomplishment. Accessing and then using it for something, even more so.

My mother is 75 and does not have an easy time understanding the difference between the Internet, Google, and a Web Browser (no offence intended to her or anybody who struggles with the pace of technology in the 21st century). She would be very resistant to even learn about crypto; she has other fish to fry. This is likely true for a very large % of our aging and less-technical population.

Somebody who does not have access to the Internet cannot use crypto directly. Somebody who does not have a credit card is going to have a harder time onboarding into the crypto world. If you have no government-issued photo ID, good luck getting on an exchange. If you have no methods of electronic payment at your disposal, you need a local crypto ATM or cash-to-crypto exchange service.

I would be hesitant to send friends in some cities to meet the local crypto exchange service – sometimes this is just a person who is willing to risk government reprisals for dealing in crypto. The environments people might need to go in order to exchange crypto for local currency might be partially underground, and therefore not entirely safe to visit. This is semi-informed opinion only – I am quite sure there are far more safe places to exchange crypto than not. Still, this is a concern, and I don’t really know what I don’t know, when it comes to crypto access in other places in the world, in 2020.

Even somebody with Internet access, a bank account, Google skills, and access to expertise, still has their work cut out for them. There is a need for universal accessibility layers on top of the crypto landscape, to allow for wider understanding and adoption by a larger portion of our population. This is an incredible communications and technical challenge.

2. Stability & Predictability

I want my crypto to be at least as stable as the fiat currency model I’ve grown up accustomed to. I might be willing to sacrifice some stability in relation to my own personal CAD dollar experience, if it meant the stability of financial access for people worldwide would generally improve on the average… though I suspect a good many people would not accept anything less than a more stable alternative to their existing one.

If my crypto unit’s value fluctuated in its ability (for example) to buy bread – say, between being worth 10 and 14 bread loaves on any given day, then I could manage my timing of the purchase of bread, to maximize the value of my wealth. If, however, the crypto’s value dropped to 2 loaves on Monday, and rose to 11 the following Monday, the uncertainty would directly impact my family’s quality of life. This is a non-starter for wide adoption.

How do you design, architect, engineer, and operate a system that recognizes everybody’s Human right to provide a stable and safe environment for themselves and their family? What do you index the value of that unit to, and how? 

I believe the power for one to gain wealth from currency speculation might be inversely proportional to one’s ability to count on that currency for day-to-day living, as well as planning for the future. A world currency would need to provide its users with this consistency, instead of a capacity to get rich (or poor) on some unpredictable cycle.

3. Security & Privacy

The mechanisms underlying of a world currency would naturally need to guarantee that both my wealth and my identity were not compromised by my participating in that model. I need to go to bed knowing that my wealth and identity will still be there in the morning.

4. Accountability & Traceability

Blockchain technology provides accountability and traceability, but services and practices also exist that offer to counteract this. Accountability is an enormous concern. Properly managed, it would allow this global system to reject its use as a vehicle for fraud and other criminal activities.

This summons the spectre of centralized oversight once again. It is hard to achieve the notion of a 100% “trustless system“, while also buying into government’s right to still monitor that system for suspicious activity. There is a natural conflict between the desire to have 100% anonymity and expecting law enforcement to continue to keep society safe from cyber crime, systemic fraud, and terrorism.

Accountability is also critical in order to comply with tax and international trade law. To the extent that a technology makes it easier to evade these things, there will be significant resistance to wide adoption.

5. General buy-in

The biggest challenge, which is based on all of the above others (and probably some I’ve not considered), is the mainstreaming and legitimizing of the idea and practice of using cryptocurrency itself.

This is no small task. You are asking for an aging and non-technical population to buy into a wholly new model, without the means (in all cases) to even understand the value proposition.

Understanding the value proposition of crypto (i.e. a monetary system implemented on a publicaly visible, decentralized platform, for the general good) means understanding something of how economics currently works (and breaks, and can be broken). It also means understanding something about security, and if you go deep enough, understanding some pretty hard-core math and computer whiz-bang-ery.

At a certain point, people without the time, background, or inclination to fully understand the cryptocurrency proposition will simply have to decide to trust the pack. When will this critical mass shift happen, and over what time frame?

What might this mean to me, today?

I can only speculate! And that brings me back to buying Bitcoin (in small amounts), in the hopes the experiment will prove some kind of success to my own, personal pocketbook.

Small steps.

Re: Writing for a Living

There. I said it.

I have been and continue to be a professional software developer, but my dream is to express myself openly and creatively, in order to pay the bills. Why do the same thing your entire life?

This dream involves having some plan, where I can conceive of trading words for financial tokens. I don’t yet have such a plan, but I suppose that’s a thing I could attempt to fix.

While I’m at it, I want to create some kind of brand. I don’t really know what that means. Do I need one of those?


Many mornings, I start the day by waking up, rolling around for a while in protest of the waking, and then finally getting up to do bathroom things and putting clothes on myself. This is Phase 1 of the New Day, most days.

Phase 2 most often involves leaving the house, and going for a walk, so that I can collect my thoughts, before “going to work”. The walk I often take brings me up a hill and back down again.

This journey is an metaphor for any given day, or week, or year, or project – forward progress does not get made at a constant rate, but instead at a rate according to the weight one carries, and the inclines and terrain features one encounters.

I carry a backpack most places I go, when I’m not in the house. My laptop and assorted things take up a good portion of the backpack’s space – the rest is extra clothes, towels, and random things I might need. It’s usually pretty full, and I enjoy the extra weight on my back as I move.

You pack things with you on all sorts of journeys – concerns of the day, responsibilities, mental or physical health issues, TODOs… that’s your weight.

You encounter challenges and tasks of all different levels throughout your journey… sometimes the challenges are easy (flat ground, downhill), and sometimes they’re harder (uphill in the heat of a Summer day)… that’s your route.

This morning walk reminds me that life is a journey – that’s why I choose that route over the easier, quicker one. My body enjoys the challenge, as well as the scenery. I pick my route, for the challenge as well as the scenery. I don’t like starting the day’s Phase 3 (work) until I’ve had a chance to walk that reminder.

Can a person pick their weight and their route in life? Through a single day, a week, a year or more?


I have too many things to say and a great many more to hear.

I think the learning and the progress happens in those transitions between.